Easter in Edmonton, Potty training struggles continue

We just got back from spending Easter in Edmonton, and had a really good time! Lynsey got to participate in her first Easter Egg hunts and she loved them:). It was good to spend some time with both of our families.

Adam is doing well - happy as ever. He has had some really good nights, and some not so great nights. Over the last week or so, I have been trying some different things with regards to feedings, trying to get him to eat more during the day so that he doesn't need to eat so much at night. I have been pumping and giving him bottles, because I thought maybe he would drink more from a bottle since he has basically stopped breast-feeding on one side. That didn't make a huge difference, but it did help to make his last bottle at night half formula half breast milk. He seems to be sleeping better, although he still has some bad nights (last night being one of them). I have been struggling with nursing lately, really not enjoying it much. A part of me really just wants to go to formula, but I'm also sad to think of doing that. I feel like I should make it until at least 6 months. Pumping is an okay option, but it takes a lot of time that I don't really have and therefore not really sustainable in the long term. For now, I am going to breast feed most of the day but just throw in at least one bottle of breast milk during the day and the formula bottle right before bed. I have to believe he will not be so hungry at night for too much longer. He has started sort of half chuckling over the last few weeks, but I wouldn't really call it a true giggle yet. He likes it when Brian swings him around, and I've discovered he likes fresh air in his face, which is fantastic! We put him in the baby swing at Brian's parents house, and he fell asleep a few separate times! This bodes well for the summer, since we will inevitably be spending the bulk of our time at various parks.

Onto Lynsey! Oh, how I hate potty training. If I knew 4 weeks ago what I know now, I would not have started. We had been resorting to taking her every hour or hour and a half so that she wouldn't have accidents, but it has become increasingly evident that she does not care one bit at this point. I put her in a pullup all day today and didn't ask her to go JUST to see if she would care, and she didn't tell me once all day that she needed to go. I told her she wouldn't get a fresh pullup every time she peed, and it seems she still doesn't care. I think (really hope!) that she will still poop on the potty, since she has been telling us about that one all along, but I am at the point where I am going to put pullups on her during the day and just let her do what she wants. I do not have the mental strength to deal with this right now, and I really question the value of forcing her to go pee every hour JUST because we know she can. Is she smart enough? Clearly. That is not the issue. She simply doesn't care, and I don't care enough to try and make her care right now (if that's even possible!). I fear I will receive some criticism for this, but my sanity is more important to me than bragging about my 2 year old being "trained". I put "trained" in quotes because I really don't feel like a kid that needs to be forced to go is trained. I don't understand the societal pressure to potty train a 2 year old anyway - I will definitely wait longer with subsequent kids to start training. Changing diapers is a whole lot easier than dealing with an unwilling potty trainer. Anyway, it is my sincere hope that sometime soon she will start caring and start telling me when she wants to go on the potty. I do not intend to give her fresh pullups throughout the day (as mentioned before) so she might eventually get tired of feeling wet all the time, who knows. All I know is that with having a feeding dilemma with my three month old, trying to potty train an unwilling toddler is just not doing anything for my sanity.