Saying good-bye to May

Here I am writing on the last day of May - can there really only be one month left in the school year?? I am excited for school to be done, but also terrified to have the kids home all day with me again. What if they drive me nuts? Hopefully we can get out lots and break up the days a lot. I did enjoy Spring Break with them home all week, but that was only one week.

Adam's home program has been a bit difficult lately. The first month was great. The last month, he has been very clingy to me. He won't let the therapists do anything with him, and gets very easily agitated if he feels at all forced into anything at all. It's been a very frustrating experience. I mentioned my frustrations at our goals meeting this past Monday, and they said they would make it one of his goals to be able to do things with therapists independent from me. I am curious as to how they will help him reach this goal. I tried to tell them how wonderful he's doing in preschool, and that when I'm not around, Brian can put him to bed without a problem. I actually feel like I am standing in the way of him making progress sometimes. However, FSCD programs are all about parent involvement and I did not get the feeling that therapy without me present was an option. I did say we would try a few times to have Brian be home for the therapy and me be completely gone from the house, so we'll see how that goes. His aide is actually away all next week, so a break might be nice. Maybe it will help him to appreciate a bit more structure in the mornings once it's gone for a little while. I need a break, too. I thought having an aide would make my life easier, but lately, it has added more stress to my life. I am not ready to give up on it, I just am really hoping and praying that Adam will be less anxious and more receptive to other people working with him when I'm around.

The other day, I sat and played trains with Nathan for a good 20 minutes. It was then that I realized that I had probably never played any one thing with Adam for that long at that age, or even now for that matter. It is very interesting to see the contrast between how Nathan is and how Adam was. I didn't realize it so much at the time, although if I had had Nathan first, I think it would have been more obvious. The contrast between girls and boys is one thing, but when you have two boys that are so different, well, I'm just thinking it may have raised some more questions. I do love how interactive Nathan is - so much fun:). He's still not saying a lot of words, but I feel like he's close to saying a bunch more soon. I guess we'll see!